I'm wondering...If not, why i'm not smile and laugh as loud and happily as before? I'm becoming a moody girl and my emotions are fluctuating all the times. I can become so happy in one moment while become sad and disappointed in the other moment. Am i too stressed and tensed out? I guess i'm not. But, why is this happening to me all this while?
I'm started to miss all the moment "we" had been spending together. Even though these is already 1 years and more had passed, i can't believe that i'm still missing some of the moments. Plus, you are having your own life and new special friend for now. I should try harder again this time to forget all those moments. Although my friends told me that memory is just some image or story and it will only keep deep inside our heart and can't be forgotten forever, thus just keep it as one of the growing story in life. It is tough and difficult to forget! I had tried so hard for the passed year but why it's coming to steal my smile and laugh this last few months again? Suffering! Please allow me to forget and live happily...
Another story of this year around, i found out that i'm used to keep distance and avoiding from her/him. I had forget the reasons why i'm doing this to them but i can't to be close to them again too. They are just not the type of person that i like to friends with, i guess. I don't know. Same to goes with the other friends, they are starting to reveal their real image sooner or later. Am i too sensitive or just too selfish? I have no idea and lost the faith that i should lend my help. I'm willing to help if you are trying harder and your best towards it before asking me for help. I don't like the persons whose are good in acting or lying, good in speaking and showing pity to others that how pity they are. Come on, i'm a cool girl! I really like to help or lend my shoulder at anytime if you are really try harder and work harder before that. DOn't ask for my concerns if you are like to take some shortcut excluding all the hard works! Bless!!!